Living Two Lives

I miss my Dad everyday and it seems to grow more each day. It wells up inside until the tears come and wash it away. Then it begins again; this vicious cycle of aching pain that I cannot conquer. I know in my soul that my Daddy is in a good place and I am at peace with his passing. I was just not ready for him to leave me. I was not prepared for him to go on without getting to say goodbye…

Masking my sadness is getting harder. I am missing out on so many things and I am not getting any better at making excuses for why I continue on this path. I know that my Dad would not want this for me and I understand that- but my heart and head are not connecting. Grief is not something that can be explained by one person and executed by another. We all have our own paths and we sometimes must walk them alone.

I will take time when needed and continue to be grateful for my amazing life. I will pray each day and continue to love because that is what I can do-

Be well! I love you all- XOXO